somedays are just rigid. in fact, somedays are so rigid that i go and smoke a cigarette. it ocurred to me today: i wonder if what i've found, is what i'm really after. or am i the unsatisfied-at-heart kind? i may have come a long way, but i've got a longer way to go. this really isn't going to make much sense, but i wish i had to sneeze. i always feel revived after i sneeze. so i'm thinking if i had to sneeze like, three times, it would make my life a heck of a lot better at the moment.

i decided today that when it comes to finding a place to live for my next go-around, the leaves on the trees have to be a permanent buttery-pear color. because if one thing's for sure, autumn motivates me to want to get up in the morning. some people have family, some people have great jobs, i need yellow hues.

and i also need sleep. and someone in bed next to me. but i guess i'm ok with just sleep right now.